Healing Fears

Healing Fears


Eleanor Roosevelt once said: “You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face. . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”
As you work to create a successful and happy life, you will be led to face your fears and then overcome them. This is a natural part of the process of achieving excellence—and one you shouldn’t prevent. True, it can be terrifying to uncover and heal your innermost fears. But isn’t it even more frightening to consider leaving this earth never having reached your highest potential?

In order to become all that you can be here on earth, you must, indeed, “do the thing you think you cannot do.” Transforming your fears is a worthy priority.
Fears produce powerful thought energy. In fact, fear can often be as powerful as faith, prompting us to stand still, just as faith prompts us to move forward and take the great leap that leads to better things. Fear tends to occupy the bulk of a person’s thoughts, thus overwhelming the natural thinking power that helps individuals mold and create happy, successful lives. When you allow fear to govern your thoughts, you focus your attention on what’s negative rather than what’s positive. Then you risk living out experiences that match your fears.

Letting go of fear is essential and necessary in order to love. “Love is letting go of fear,” says author Gerald G. Jampolsky, who has written a book on the subject. When you heal your fears, you replace those feelings with faith and hope, thus gravitating toward love. Trust becomes a by-product of your actions, and fears begin to fade away. And this is when the miracles happen: you begin to manifest more of what you want in life that is positive.
You learn that your daily actions and responses can be motivated by love or fear—it’s your choice! Choosing to heal your fears and allow love to be the mainstay motivation throughout life will help you to be happy, peaceful, and successful. When you face your fears—and you do this by deciding that the next step needs to be taken because you love yourself and those around you and you have confidence that you can succeed—most of the time you will inevitably discover that what you once feared really isn’t all that scary . . . or at least not as scary as it once seemed.
Fear can blow situations out of proportion, making something small seem monstrous in your mind. Remember that your fears and your imaginations are incredibly powerful. Then use your faith and ability to love (rather than your fears) to help you succeed.

Decemeber is here

I have a feeling this blogging buisness is going to end soon. I feel like I don't really have a lot of time to sit down and write about all the crazy things we have been doing. By the time I sit down each night I am too tired to do anything. I just want to curl up with a good book and read. Not type out my days, weeks and months. But nonetheless, here I am.
I can't believe it has been almost a month since I last wrote. I swear once Halloween is over, the rest of the year just passes in the blink of an eye. The end is almost here and we have so much still to do and accomplish.
Thanksgiving was nice. We didn't go anywhere this year. Since we are going to be in Arizona for Christmas we stayed here and had Thanksgiving with my family. It was nice. My sister decided to come and be with us this year. That was great and my brother Justin came home for a week and that was so much fun. Being all together was a wonderful thing.
I can't honestly say we did a ton of fun, crazy things that we had planned but we did have a good time doing a few things together. Bowling, going to movies, shopping and just hanging out. My children had the entire week off so we took them to see Wreck-it-Ralf one day and they just loved that. Eating too many treats, not working out and having late nights was fun for awhile but man, I am telling you, there is nothing like being back on track and on schedule. I feel good. My kids are good and life is happy and wonderful.

Now it is December and this month is going to fly by even faster. We have so much going on. The list is never ending but all of it is good and will be a lot of fun, minus the traveling. I wish we could just close our eyes and wish us there but unfortunatley I will have to wait for that until I can create my own world :).

Lance's youngest sister Camille, who, I just adore and love, is getting married Januay 2nd in the Mesa, Arizona temple. So to make it worth the drive we decided to go to Arizona for Christmas. At first I was dreading the drive and being away from our own home and traditions, I am actually really excited. There will be all of Lance's siblings together, minus Preston, who is currently serving his misison in Singapore now. But we are so thrilled to talk to him on Christmas day.  All my sister-in-laws will be there and we will all be under one roof. I know, I know, crazy but a good crazy. Can't wait.

So Camille will take our her endowements the day after Christmas and then on the 27th we have decided to surprise our children with a trip to Disneyland this year for our family Christmas present. I think they will be pleasantly surprised. I am not a huge Disney fan. Yes, I admit it, not really a fan but it will be worth seeing my children so happy. So we will drive to Disneyland and stay until the 30th and then head back to Arizona for some fun wedding festivities and then head back home on the 6th. It is going to be a long trip but we can do it.

I love my in-laws. They are wonderful people and we all have so much fun together. So until we leave we have ward Christmas parties, a birthday party to celebrate, an anniversary, finish up Christmas shopping, take kids to the dentist and the list goes on and on. Tis the season.
Now I just need to finish up my list of people to send out Christmas cards too. Happy Decemeber!!!!!!

Half over

Is Thanksgiving really next week? Where have I been? I don't even have anything planned yet. Have no clue what is going to happen, where we are going to go and with who. I am hoping my parents invitation is still open.
This month just like all the others seems to be passing faster than I can keep up. My kids are growing up way too fast, and sometimes not fast enough. I know, I know, everyone tells me not to wish it too fast. I don't really wish it, it just seems so on days like today that I wish it would. Do I make any sense?
I am really, really tired. Ever since the time change about two weeks ago our family routine has been screwed up. Instead of my children waking up at 6:30 a.m., which I thought was insanely too early, are now waking up at 5:30 a.m. and demanding breakfast. UUUGGGHHH!
Lance has been teaching early morning seminary this entire week and when he wakes up the whole house wakes up. Seems like our little house echos and it wakes everyone up. So at 5:45 I start to hear Ellie making some sounds in her room. By this time Owen has been awake 3 times and is running up and down the hallway turning on every bright light he can reach for and turning it on, waking everyone up and them that makes us all tired and grouchy. Well this morning he ran into Keaton's room and woke him up telling him that Ellie needed to get out of her crib.
Keaton is amazing! Can I just tell you that? He seriously gets up every morning and has taken upon himself the job of taking care of Ellie so mom and dad can sleep alittle more. Well I am usually up and running by 6 to be at the church to teach our workouts. I am in the door by 7 a.m. and the hosue is awake. Well this morning Keaton did it again. He took Ellie upstairs and put Cinderella on for her. She LOVES that movie. All I have to do is ask her " Wanna watch Cinderella?" and it turns tears into smiles. Love that about her. She will sit so still and watch. Is that bad to use that as a crutch? Well, I don't care right now because I need time, sometimes.
Well this morning I tried to fall back asleep to catch a few more minutes of shut eye when I hear Keaton coming. Next thing I know, I am laying down covered in cereal, milk and yogart. Keaton tried to make me breakfast in bed, Keaton style and while trying to make it to me in bed, he tripped on something and this sweet little tray of food that he prepared for me came crashing down on me. I was literally covered in milk, fruit loops and peach yogart. How gross is that?
My first reaction? Well I yelled. I shouldn't have, but I was dead tired, and covered in food. My poor son ran to his room crying. I cried then too. I went into his room and cried in front of him. I told him I was really sorry for being upset. I told him I would still eat the food he made for me and he cheered right up. So what did my son do next? He cheered me on and I had to try and scoop the cereal back into my bowl and eat it. Yes, I know, how gross! But it made him happy. I was happy about that too.
Did I take pictures? My friends all asked me today. No! I did not. That was not my first reaction. I wish it was. I will hopefully look back on it and laugh one day. The thought was so sweet and that is what makes me smile about that each time.
Like I said, Lance has been subing in early morning seminary all this week. That means he has to be up by 5:30 a.m. and out the door a quarter till 6. Class starts at 6:25 a.m. Then he is back home around 8 a.m.. Just about the time my kids are asking for lunch. I haven't been able to go and workout this week. I am feeling it. I am tired! I am grouchy! I need to run!!!!
Well it is almost 10 p.m. and I need to go to bed! Good night!!!!

Halloween

This was the first year in many years when we did not have a trunk or treat to go to. I was kind of bumned about that but we found another great alternative. My sister Rachel lives in Middleton and in a great subdivision so we took our kids over there to trick or treat.
But let me start from the beginning of our day. We started the day with a healthy breakfast of Krispy Kreme Halloween donuts and hot chocolate. Then all the kids had school so that was nice. I went and volunteered at Andrew's school harvest party. I had a great time being with Andrew and watching him have a fun time. They had a lot of different stations to go to for snacks, crafts and fun games. Then I went straight home to be picked up by one of my most favorite friends, Diane Payne. We went to take her son, Cardston, who is a senior this year to go downtown Boise and take his senior pictures. We had a great time. I think we laughed the whole time.  Then I got home just in time to make a quick dinner and then dress the kiddos in their costumes and head to Middleton. The whole day felt like it was go, go, go but that made it all the more entertaining. Since my days are spent pretty much at home since we have a schedule to keep to. It was nice for a change.
The weather was perfect! The day was warm and sunny but towards the evening it started to get overcast and then it cooled down quite abit, just as we were starting to trick or treat. But that didn't stop us. Ellie was a sport to sit in her stroller and just go for a ride. She was the most well behaved Lady Bug there was.

Hope you had a wonderful Halloween too! Until next year......

Palmer's Harvest Party

Once again the Palmer's party did not disapppoint my children. They LOVED it! It was perfect weather and perfect company. We all met up at my parents house to have breakfast for dinner. My kids are big fans of that. Breakfast for any meal really gets no complaints from them. Then we dressed the kids up and walked down to the Palmers.
This year Spiderman and Captain America parachuted into the party. That was fun. Then the plane flew over head to drop all the candy out for everyone to pick up. Since there were so many people this year it was next to impossible to find just one piece of candy on the ground. Keaton and Andrew were off running with friends in search of candy and I was helping Owen find a few pieces. He was in tears. He was so sad that he couldn't find anything. Seriously when the plane flies over and dumps buckets of candy out the window, it falls fast and hits you really hard. I got hit in the head with a number of hard pieces of candy, so did Owen. He didn't really like that. With the help from other adults, Owen was able to fill up his bucket and walk away a happy camper. Ellie was a trooper and had a great time. I think she was just so entertained with how many people were there and all the costumes. She really didn't make too many sounds.
Only sad thing is, this was the Palmer's last year to host the party. It has become so huge that it is just overwhelming to continue. It started about 4 years ago as a ward Halloween party and then each year the word spread alittle further and further out, this year it was estimated that close to 900 people were there. That is a lot of people. My children will greatly miss this fun tradition we started. I guess we are just going to have to come up with our own party to start.

Fieldtrip to the Berry Ranch

This morning was Owen's second fieldtrip with his preschool class so far this year. They have a fieldtrip planned every month and today happened to be the big day. Ms. Emily planned to go to the Berry Ranch yesterday but since it was forecasted for rain, that really never came, she postponed it until the following day, today. We woke up to fog, and lots of it. You couldn't even see the home across the street from us, it was that dense. It was really beautiful. Well the field trip was still on and so I loaded Andrew and Owen up in the car all bundled up nice and warm and headed out to the Berry Ranch. I have never been there but I have heard a lot about it. It is open all year long. You can pick your own produce almost year round and in the fall you can pick your own pumpkins, play in the hay maze, feed the chickens and turkeys, play a fun game of pumpkin bowling and then roam the pumpkin patch to find the perfect pumpkin.
It was cold! Really cold! But we survived and had a really fun time. I am glad that boys had a good time. I had a fun time playing with them and visiting with all the other friends there. Thanks Ms. Emily for a fun field trip.

Picking Pumpkins

Every year we have always gone to Jeremey's Pumpkins to get out stash. This year we had a great time. The kids run wild and pick their pumpkins and there is so much to look at. This year Ellie was excited as well.